Is a Debate a debate if Obama is the only one there???

So... here is the COOLEST Senior page EVER....  Yeah, I am the bomb.. Only because I have an INCREDIBLE friend who did this for me because I was on the verge of meltdown because I couldn't put it all together...  sad, huh?  But lucky in friends, also!!

The job stuff in NOLA Monday went GREAT!!  I really like everything about it so far. The people are SUPER nice, the facility was great, I passed my drug test (haha!!) and everything went well!  Jay even feels better about it, also.  They have all been worried about the "area" I would be in.., My thoughts are "Hell... it cannot be any worse than waking up in a standoff in a comfort inn in Jackson!!"   Right??  Exactly.  But they have all talked to "somebody" or "somebody who knows somebody" that knows about the area i will be in and they have all reassured my loved ones that I will be fine..  Thank you Jesus.... otherwise, I would still be without a job (or without a boyfriend/mom/dad/etc.....).  I guess the standoff made them doubt my judgement of "safe"!!  

I have tried to take this week as a mini-vacay...but, somehow my time has been filled with stuff to do.  Just last night I got on hands and feet and cleaned my kitchen floor.. it sparkles now...   I am preparing for a rummage sale on Oct 4th!  I think we will be participating in the Ellisville "City Wide" Rummage Sale in downtown...come see us!!  We will have all kinds of shit that we don't want anymore that you don't need!  But come buy it anyway!!!!  

I guess that is about all.. EXCEPT....  Tonight is GREYS ANATOMY Season Premiere night!!  Two WHOLE hours of NEW GREYS!!!  YAY!!!  The only thing missing will the the "crew"...  Sister was coming home, but decided to stay in Oxford for the presidential debate...God, I hope the KKK nor the Black Panthers get her.....  haha!!   But, now that whether or not they are going to have it is up in the air it has completely thrown her off...  Too funny!   She will be home next weekend for homecoming tho!   

Well...we play Northeast Jones tomorrow night.. again, we are "predicted" to lose.. whatever.....  

GO BRAVES!!!

It was a sad, sad, sad day.....

So...I got a new computer... Yes.. one that I hope will take me into my forties...  I got a MacBook Pro... (and I LOOOOOVVVVEEEE it!)...

This cute little pic on your left, yeah..that was taken with the icam thingy...how cool!   

I am just so excited and grateful for this new toy..

Now to the sad part of the weekend...  It gets a little graphic at this point so anyone who cannot handle it...this is your warning...

South Jones vs Northeast Lauderdale...according to county rivals this is our first REAL non-cupcake game of the season...  So, we must prove ourselves here...  I went to the Pep Rally...GO O'Mighty BRAVES...GO GO Mighty BRAVES goooooo.....   Then we tail gated starting around 5 that afternoon for sausage dogs and potato salad and chips...YUMMY!!   Not to mention the scrumdiddylicious snicker brownies i made!   I hired Lee Caves to come and take pics of certain boys for us... he is awesome!!   We head our way into the field and take our seats... as we sit there and wait, then sing the anthem....before the kickoff...I have to get up and leave to go to the bathroom...the rumbly in my tumbly was not going to wait and it was not going to be a football field bathroom experience...  So, after almost whipping some gatekeeper wannabe custodian's ass....I got the security guard to let me leave by telling him i was having personal female problems and HAD to go...  he all but threw me over his shoulder to get me out of there... 

so, i run home.................handle my situation..........return 20 minutes later..  I thought it was pretty good and anything I missed Lee will have it on film!    So, we are whipping some NEL ass and it feels good!   Half-time rolls around we are ahead... I am sitting there and the rumbly begins again...so, i just decide to go on home and hurry back... I did not want to miss pics after the game....so off i go... and back i return... this time with everyone staring at me and looking all tight lipped and shit... i sit down and lean in and say, "Are ya'll talking about me,..laughing at me.... I cannot help it if my belly has poor timing..."   they all just looked at me not saying anything again... I just look at them and say..."It's not funny...".  Then Billy leans back to me and whispers..."Tyler scored a touchdown....".......................

That is close to how long it took for my brain to process that my baby had scored a touch down and i was at home on the throne.......everything in my being began to tear up...  and the tears in my eyes would not just sit there as much as i wanted them to...I cannot believe it.  Here I am staying near home, making myself find jobs near home so that i don't...what??  So that I don't WHAT????   SO THAT I DON'T MISS STUFF.    AND I MISSED IT!!!!!!    

They all knew how bad it was going to be....they all knew and were not going to tell me about it...   Then they say just don't tell him you were gone... I cannot lie to him...so after the game was over... yes we won!!........I was standing on the field, as always, waiting for him to find me, us... and all these tears in my eyes....  And I know the look he gave me was the "Oh my gosh you are crying because i scored a touchdown...."....  I just shake my head and say, "I missed it......." and started crying...  it was HORRIBLE, for me anyway.   I DON'T MISS STUFF......  I DON't.......  I drive the long drive after working all day to the world series.  I get the first pep rally shots.   I don't miss stuff...  Then to miss something THAT important... killed me.. But, he gave me that great big hug and it felt a little better.....

I am SO proud of him.....

The rest of the weekend was good... Saturday...slept in, battled sneezes and allergies, went to see "The Women" with mom, krissy and kim, then to eat olive garden.. then to get my mac, come home play with it while losing the battle to sneezing and allergies...     Finally ten o'clock i took 75mg benadryl and just threw up the white flag.   Defeat.    Sunday, slept in, got up and went to eat at the new chinese place with jay clint and tyler.. it was ok... we all like china town better tho...   then, worked on the senior annual page for tyler.   That is causing me some drama.  But it is getting better..... Tyler broke dad's finger today at the baseball field...dad can't catch him anymore...  everywhere you look Tyler is breaking away from us...Apron strings are being ravelled, tatterred, cut, sliced....sent thru the shredder.....they are gone!  

Oh well.. me and my J are headed to the NOLA tomorrow to go do my drug test, pharmacology test, pre-employment stuff for EJGH!   I am REALLY excited about working there!    Hoping it is fun!!!   I have heard it is anyway!!    Jay is still doing really well on his online classes....he is missing his football years.. i told him that if he stays enrolled at jones, if he starts now and gets into shape, maybe he can tryout for the 2009 Bobcat Football team!!!!  hahaahahahahahahaahah!!!!!!!!

So, here's a CHEERS to you for a SPLENDID week without any Stomach problems....they can screw your world up............

just UN

at this current moment I am absolutely UN-everything..
unmotivated...
unmoved...
uninterested...
uncomfortable....
unnecessary...
unemployed..
unlucky....

Just UN everything....

I am ready to be done here. Ready to start the next round! I am hoping and praying that I get the job at East Jefferson.. I have heard really good things about it and it is a sweet deal! It would get me employed until the week before Christmas! Then I will take my 2 week vacay and return to work somewhere making preparations for BASEBALL season! I dread baseball this year... It is the final year. JUST yesterday...JUST yesterday we were at Mr. Rose's getting heads shaved....haha!!

I am worried about little Sister... I know she will be fine...she will. But, I still worry about her... I am, however, very excited she is coming home next weekend! I was going to try to go up there to surprise her and watch the Grey's Anatomy season premiere with her, but she is coming here... !!! YAY!!

Speaking of Greys... I just don't know... I keep seeing the preview and it is leading us to think that Rose is pregnant with McDreamy's baby... Did they even have SEX????? Oh Hell...this is serious... and Meredith is just standing in the house made of candles waiting for him.... UGGGHHH!!! Oh the stress.. the anxiety.. I may need a pill (haha, just kidding, mom.....)

So.. there is my current mood/thoughts......................

Enjoy

Bittersweet in the Ghetto....

Yeah... So only 2 more nights in the J-town Ghetto! It really is bitter-sweet... I have met many people that I truly like here. Some of which I will remain friends with, I hope. If not friends, at least keep in touch with them and what is going on!

I have learned alot about myself in this year. I have learned alot about life this year! One of the biggest lessons is don't judge a person from what you THINK you know about them. Get to know them, then make your judgments. The first month or two or three were really hard on me here. I really felt that I had to prove myself and dealt with some misjudgments from others. Now, after all is said and done, I like them and I think they like me!

There are alot of really good people at CMMC and I was lucky enough to get to know some of them! I will always appreciate my time here and hope to see them again, soon!

Now on to BIGGER and BETTER things....I think!!!!

An 8x10 page.....

Facing one of the most difficult things I have faced in quite while... Yes. I understand that there are SO many other people with "real" problems, but this is too real for me right now.

Senior annual ad pages are due by the end of September. For those of you who don't know what that is.... Pages at the end of the annual that cost WAY too much for people to place pictures, scriptures, wise sayings/quotes of/about their graduating Senior. I did a page from me and tyler for Kimberly's senior year and now it is time for me and kim to do one for him. How I wish she were here to help me! He "approved" the page "we" did for her....but she would be very active in the decision making process with his and I could use her creativity and elimination skills!

How do you condense a lifetime of photos and experiences into one 8x10 page?

How do you put ALL the important stuff on there?

How can you do that when so many important things are STILL happening???

Jesus... Tyler is going to kill me... It is going to happen... Brother, I promise you here and now that I will do my VERY best not to become some hyperventilating, blithering, sobbing idiot...that is the best I can do. (it is going to happen tho...).... But, I think it is good letting it out. Hell...if I kept it in I would just EXPLODE! We really don't want that to happen.....

So.. I will continue to look through the years.....the years that have meant so much to all of us. I look on my shelves of photo albums and now they house all of Kim's Senior year... All 7 albums! Yours are just around the corner!

Drugs

So.. this is where I need to be when THIS kind of weather hits (in a straight jacket) . Yes. I sometimes take medications and enjoy their benefits. I believe that is just appreciating what is PRESCRIBED to you. I don't hit the streets looking for my next hit... BUT!!!!! What I would do for a Xanax RIGHT NOW!!!! did i say, RIGHT NOW???? This weather is a huge problem for me. Don't know why... have a few ideas, nothing solid tho. If anyone would like to give me the gift of hypnosis for Christmas, I would GREATLY appreciate it!

But for the time being... taking ambien 15mg will have to work for me to get some sleep so that I can go back to work tonight......

I am open to better ideas (or better drugs)!!!!